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Siti Nurshila
SHILALA
Swinging Single.
Love?
Not any time soon, i'll wait for the right time & right one. (:
This is where i pen down all my thoughts, and almost everything about my life.
I'm not perfect.
i have my flaws too.
But i try to be the best for myself and others.
Yes! Yes!
I live my life to the very fullest.
But i do not neglect the man above and the people around me.
Oh Oh Yea !!
And I don't care if you hate me or bitch bout me, cause your just making me famous, baybeh.
Thanks for visiting my blog. Good day readers~. (:
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Note To Self

Pray to god, shila. Study now, have fun later. Bear with it, time will fly very fast. Do it for your mom,shila.

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♥ Sunday, May 3, 2009
7:02 PM



Guess , third party really sux be it in a relationship or friendship.
I'm getting sick & tired of people who don't appreciate the things we did for them.
I'm not dwelling but i just have to clarify certain things here.
At least, don't forget that someone, you knew before for someone you just know, a week.
okay. -.-
Oh well, I won't be blogging cause computer broke down. And it has yet to be repaired.
Currently, online via babygirl's laptop.
So i guess, i be meeting her every Friday to catch things up with you peeps aye. (:
other than that, i be on hiatus.

1:22 AM

blog will be under construction.
computer break down.
sorry readers.
anything leave a message.
tc~~

♥ Thursday, April 23, 2009
Everyone is unique
6:58 PM

After so long of not meeting each other, finally We met.
And as usual, its always blissful to be with baby girl.




And to my dear baby girl, Hanifayana Binte Yahya.
Stop looking down on yourself.
Stop thinking your ugly just because the people around you is indifferent.

Babe, Look at it in a positive way.
Your not ugly, your unique. Your different. You stand out among the rest.
Be blessed, baby. Thanked god for what you have now.
No one is perfect, Everyone is unique in their own way.
Hence your imperfections that makes you perfect, and I'm sure you know that. Right?


Don't let this bring you down. No matter what they say, always have this in mind.
Your just one of a kind. Your special. Your beautiful. You are, babe.

You don't have to be thin and tall, to be beautiful baby.
You don't have to look like them, to be beautiful.
You don't have to have their features to look great.
You don't have to be a model, to be beautiful.
You are beautiful in every single way.
Those eyes, those smiles, those sexy legs, those eyelashes, those hair.
Do note, looks won't last long. Its the heart that matters the most.
It's the inner beauty that last long, that people will find you most beautiful.
Alright baby?


Heads up!
Where is the girl, who don't gives a shit to what others have to say?
Where is that girl who is so full of confidence?
I don't see that happy go lucky, girl next door anymore.
So please, just lead your life as per normal.
I don't want to see you,next month like a walking short skeleton.

alright? ^-^
p.s:
looks capture the eyes,
but its the personality that captures the heart.

♥ Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Random
11:15 PM



I miss being in love.
I miss having long term relationship.
I miss being pampered.
I miss being cared for.
I miss to have that very special someone to lean on.
I miss having late night calls everyday till the next morning.
I miss having silly arguments.
I miss dating.
I miss being attached.
I miss my brother.
I miss my babygirl.
I miss my old friends.
I miss my primary school friends.
I miss dancing.
I miss going to club.
I miss nightlife.
I miss having those tight hugs and blissful kisses. ^^
I miss my nerdy and holy days.
I miss those rides.
I miss his scrambler.
I miss Mr.Z . I miss Mr. M
I miss Kudutman. I miss Crunchey Munchey. I miss Mr.Broken
I miss all those lovely nice funny guys.
I miss working.
I miss going to religion class.
I miss my late grandparents.
I miss those time when i really never missed a single prayer.
I miss being known, as anak soleha.
I miss everything .


If only i could turn back the time.
If only, i have the power.
If only, things didn't went this way.
If only, i could tell these people how much i miss them.
If only, god give me the ability to tell my loved ones how i actually still remembered those days.
If only, I''m not what I am now.
If only, I follow his guidance earlier.

And that is, if only.



♥ Monday, April 20, 2009
SCHOOL !
5:58 PM

I love school. I'm loving it. The peeps & the teachers never fail to make me go CRRRAZY !
( satu hari tak ketawe, tak mengutuk, tak kacau orang tak sah. ! )

Home Alone right now.
Mom went out with Sister and niece to Tampines 1.
How is the new Mall? I heard it was packed, so i didn't follow them there.
Oh. And i heard there is a swimming pool? Heh? Should visit the new mall soon.
Okay . I have to stop all these happy go lucky attitude already. Gosh!
Time to be serious right now!
I know I know. Aku perangai anjing laut. Tak pernah serious.
But babe, there is a first time for everything what. Kan?
Cheyy Cheyy. Shila! Kau serious or what? Since when?
HA HA ! daa sudaaah. sheeeesh ~.
Assingments to be completed by this week.
  • 10 drawings, of open up things
  • 10 development drawings of living creatures
  • 2 layouts , photo copied A4. ( two different colour scheme.)


p.s : i need a puff right now.

♥ Sunday, April 19, 2009
Another Lazy Sunday
4:39 PM

I need a break. I need a massager right now. My leg hurts. My body is aching.
All thanks to the napha test,the cycling,the falling.
All these that lead to this injuries i have on my body.

I want mom to help me massage, but unfortunately mom is upset with me. Period.
Now she perangai with me. And what is wrong with me today?
I did something very very super silly, out of my 16 years of life.
I shall not elaborate more on the incident that happened earlier at home.
Thanks eh, ibu. Suka la kau, kan kan kan. Gembira? -.-

Oh! Mom was being so random and weird yesterday.

Mom : '' ehh! Anugerah da nak start, taw. ''

Me: '' Uh abeh? nak orang buat ape? buat banner? Amik number laki? -.-''

Mom: '' Eh . Kelakar nye kau. Gi masuk la. Kau kan suka nyanyi. Pandai nyanyi.''

Me: '' HA HA HA ! Ibu buat kelakar ke pe? Siti masuk? Suara sedap tak ape la jugak.''

Mom: '' Eh. Sedap pe. Anak ibu kaaaaaaaaaaan. ''

( part ni mak aku macam yer ohhh. yerla, part bagus mengaku la anak kau ehh . )

Me: '' Tak nak uh. Muslimah Anggun jer orang da back off. Ape lagi nih. ''

Mom: '' Kau memang , Gatal . da nak menang, dapat finalist. tak nak. Pandai sangat la. bla ''

I walked away, when she was nagging about my stupidity.
Ha Ha. Anyway, i did want to join the anugerah. You know try out for fun. Who knows? Kan?
To be a singer is one of my dreams too, you know. Hehs.
But sadly, I'm not legally 16 yet. Perhaps another 2 more years?
Or if there is any vacancy for acting, i don't mind joining without any doubts! haha! (:
Enough shila, Stop dreaming. Wait long long hor. Man Man lai ~
Mid year is around the corner, babe. In 2 weeks time!
Better start revising!!

♥ Saturday, April 18, 2009
4:05 PM

Its Saturday ! Ha Ha Ha. Finally!
I want to go out, but i'm lazy. Okay that's not the point, the main reason is, I'm broke.
I really on a budget terminal right now. How much do i have, Only $15.
Tell me, what can i do with 15 bucks in my wallet?
The girls, suggested to go cycling again at East Coast Park.
( padehal, semalam baru pergi with Mr. A , pergi lagi. )
So i feeling feeling, want to pedal pedal the bicycle, with the angin angin laut. I agreed.
Okay, got to go now. Ifaa is on the way here, and i've yet to shower.
Will update again. Have fun with your weekends! (:

♥ Friday, April 17, 2009
DEDICATION
4:08 PM

SPECIAL SHOUT OUT !!




HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCED, SITI NURHUDA !
Babe, I'm sorry for going missing in action. Ha Ha. Been busy with life.
Everyone is leading their own life right now after the holidays
And ever since school has reopened, for majority .
Your taking your major exams in a few months time.
I'm here focusing on my basic foundation, for the second time. i know i know, pathetic.
Meet up soon alright? Me , You , You and Me.
I miss you. I miss those times, those laughter, those nightlife with the partypeople. Hehs.
Do know that, no matter how far we have drifted apart, your still remembered by me,always.
Cause your one of a kind, out of all my other lovely friends.
okay sayang? May all your wished come true, insyallah.
^,^

♥ Thursday, April 16, 2009
12:29 AM

Hello darlings. My blog is finally, alive again ! ha ha ha.
New Skin, New chat box . And songs that will make you groove to the beat.
Lets not make this blog, an emotional sentimental site. Ha Ha.
Life has been good. Superb ~! Too good, that i don't have the time to blog. -.-
I'm enjoying my single life right now. I don't need a man to satisfy me, for now.
( chey shila, like real. Okay serious, i don't need a man like that someone . )
So zane dear, i've proved you. I'm better off without you.
You do your own thang, and im'ma do mine. No point crying over a spilt milk.
I suggest you should stop texting me already. I should give myself and others a chance.
Like what mom told me, I'm still young and have a long way to go.
If we are meant to be, we will.
Oh ! I'm missing babygirl, a lot right now. Girl , meet me up soon okay?
Aku nak peluk kau, nak cium cium rogol kau. he he!! ((:
Oh to some friends, we don't even care if your still schooling or not.
You girls, will realized how miserable life is without education.
C'mon babes, We need education to survive in Singapore.
Well, unless your too cheap, that it doesn't even matter.
Main point: We are better off without you girls, in school .
Oh, sooner or later , you will get sick and tired of outside life. trust me. ^^
Time checked. Its already 12.47 am . Off to bed in ten minutes time.
miss having late night calls.

♥ Wednesday, April 15, 2009
1:05 AM



I love my girls . Very the super the much ~.
Thanks for the laughter, the inside jokes. Thanks for always being there, to entertain me. ((:
So, the whole week was spend with the girls and tuitoring my nephew.



  • Went cycling at east coast.
  • Cycling again, at ayu's park.
  • Laughing Gas ! Ha Ha .
  • Borrow books at national library.
  • Survey for part time job.

♥ Tuesday, April 14, 2009
I hate this part right here
12:54 AM

STUCK
I don't know, what's right and what's real anymore.
I don't know, what i should do. I don't know if i should go with the flow.
I don't know, if i should meet you and give you another chance.
I don't know, I just can't get control of myself whenever it comes to you.
But i know, i can't lie to myself.
Yes, I'm still am waiting and hoping for your return. I don't care bout what others have to say.
I don't know why, i just want you. Deep down, this heart still beats for you.
I am moving on, but i'm not going anywhere. I'm stuck here, not sure in fantasy or reality.
I'm afraid, your going to hurt me again.
Is this another dream of fairytale? Or just another nightmare?
I've been hearing unhealthy remarks and things which really bring me down.
But despite all that, i'm still into you like the first time . . .
how can i move on when i'm still in love with you?
maybe you will come back, or maybe you will never.

♥ Friday, April 10, 2009
10:23 PM



She's the girl that makes people smile, and be there for them
She turns they're frown upside down
She smiles, she laughs all the time
But no one knows her deep inside

p.s: confession of myself, if only i could turn back the time.

♥ Wednesday, April 8, 2009
11:58 PM

Note: Never make someone your everything, cause when they're gone, you've got nothing .


Okay, that was exaggerating. Not really nothing, You got something la of course.
Perhaps,at least some lesson learnt? Regrets? Satisfied?
It depends on your luck. okay, this is just a random note. ^-^

Oh. I really need to start saving. Been spending a lot, and i'm only left with $20 for this week.
That will last me on thursday till saturday ? Tak cukup dol .
Cannot!! I need to work ! Any vacancy?

( mom is going to kill me, if she finds out bout this. Mid year is in 3 weeks time, shila! are you insane? Start revising!! You so going to be dead, if your repeating again next year for the second time. ehh gileeer uhh, siape nak retain 2 kali? ape long service award? -.- )

P.s: I want that mango 's pants ! Hint Hint !! ((:

♥ Sunday, April 5, 2009
1:14 AM

To you, Mizi !

I'm sorry . Something bad crop up! I will and for sure return! Will call you asap!
Sorry sorry. Really in a bad situation right now. My sim card, cannot function. =X

♥ Saturday, April 4, 2009
1:00 AM

Things to get , and do this month

  1. Za concealer. $13
  2. Eyebrow shadow $5
  3. Beauty Credit Mascara $40
  4. Beauty Credit White Eye liner $17
  5. Pore Pacts $5
  6. Diva's Bangles & earrings $40
  7. Jeans Or Another Cargo pants $???
  8. Mango Pants $50
  9. Cotton On tank tops $20
  10. Another Design, Different colour maxi dress. $??
  11. Charles & Keith Bag. $60
  12. Top up card!
  13. Renew ezlink !
  14. Return handphone! =X

Now, save save save save !! Red higlight, bought. Unhighlighted, yet to grab.

♥ Friday, April 3, 2009
reason,season or lifetime.
11:47 PM

people came into your life for a reason, a season of a lifetime.
when you know which one it is,you will know what to do for that person.





when someone is in your life for a REASON.
it is usually to meet a need you have expressed
they have come to assist you through a difficulty.
to provide you with guidance and support.
to aid you physically,emotianally, or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend and they are.
they are there for a reason you need them to be
then,without any wrong doing on your part or at an incovenient time,
this person will say or do something to bring up the relationship to an end.
sometimes they die, sometimes they walk away.
sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
what we must realize is that our need has been met,
our desire fulfilled , their work is done.
the prayer you sent up has been answered,and now it is time to move on.




While some people came into your life for a SEASON.
because your turn has come to share,grow or learn.
they bring you an experienced of peace or make you laugh.
they may teach you something you have never done.
they usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
believe it is real,but only for a season.









LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetimes lessons,
things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation,
your job is to accept the lesson,love the person.
and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and area of your life.
it is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.
Therefor friends,weather or not you come for a reason,season or a lifetime.
you have onced been part of my life.
and i thanked you for everything.& i thanked god for you. ( :
be it in a bad way , or a good way.
Whether you guys have hurt me emotionally,physically or mentally.


p.s: life is wonderful .

♥ Wednesday, April 1, 2009
11:23 PM

Been busy with school & family that i have no time to update my blog. Another reason is, lazy.
To my dear friends, Faris and Feeeqa , whom is currently going through a heartache period.
Please please please, be strong okay sayangs? Look , god has many things instore for us.
Things might not turn the way we want it to be now, but you never know in the future.
There is a soulmate for everyone. Cheer up okay ? You know, you got me. ((:

♥ Friday, March 27, 2009
3:50 PM

Barbeque chicken & Bandong drink ! Fuhh ~ Poweeeeeeeeeeeeer !!



And i have a sudden gesture, to have these food above. Well, you can't blame me.
The last time i had barbeque chicken & pastamania was last year. Tell me bout it. Pathetic kan?
How many months have i not had them ? So, Anyone? Bring me to pastamania please? ^.^
Since its already officially, HALAL. There shouldn't be an problem right?
I feel like going to the beach with my family. Or perhaps go overseas?
It has been awhile since we last had our family outing.
Mom suggested that we should go abroad during the june holidays.
I want to go negeri mak saleh can, ibu? Hehs.
Unfortunately, i won't be look forward to it . Second brother is not going to be able to tag along.
Which means, Its not a family get away anymore. A family outing means so much to me.
Besides the meaning of father and mother i love you, of course.
It means that, Each and everyone of the family must and should be there for any outing.
If only things never happened the way it is right now.
oh god, quicken the time please.




Anyway, see this Lil guy here.
I will be busy from this week onwards every Tuesday, Thursday and Friday.
Will be teaching him, how to read basic Primary 1 English and Solve maths problem.
Make it simple, I'll be a tutor to my nephew and nieces.
Primary 3, Primay 1 and K1.
Yesterday was my first lesson with them, and I've learnt that in teaching, one needs to have a lot of patience.
Oh, my nephew was being such a cutie.
Him: '' Auntie Siti, can you teach me how to read? ''
ME : '' Read? You mean all along, you don't know how to read? ''
Him : '' Please? And can you teach me time time divide divide? ''
Me: '' Math? Multiplication and Division? ''
Him : '' uhh that one . ''
Scene 2 .
Spelling Test.
Him: '' I want lollipop too can? ''
Me: '' Cannot. You do your spelling first. All full marks then i give you. If not , wait long long. ''
Him: '' ( frustrated, sad face ) Alaaa, okay la . ''
Even after 3 times of testing, still not full marks. He lost hope and was at the verge of giving up.
Hence, he start throwing tantrums.
Me: '' Danial takmu nak perangai eyy. Auntie Siti tak suke. ''
Him : Kept quite, and lay his head on the table with sulky face.
Me: '' Belajar, kepala takmu letak atas table. Macam mane nak pandai?!! ''
Him : Slowly looked up and start to cry, fake one.
Me: '' Jangan nak ngade ngade ey. Jangan pemalas. ''
HA HA HA HA ! i love kids a lot.
I felt bad actually for treating him that way. Cause I've been very nice to him.
Whenever he wants something, I'll give it to him.
Whenever his parents scold him, and no one was on his side.
I was and will be there, to comfort him and entertain him.
But, i must teach him discipline. There is time to play,and time to be serious,especially in studies.
I don't want him to grow up in a wrong direction, and be a sampah masyarakat.
Okay! got to go. its already 6pm.
I have to go to national library, return the books and borrow some reading books for the Lil brats.
And off to sister's in law house. Tc readers! ((:

♥ Wednesday, March 25, 2009
7:27 PM

BOY GIRL THING .
'' Now if your dude ain't acting right. You tell that dude, he got to go .
If that dude be claimin' that he broke. He got to go. '' - missy elliot .
To all the ladies out there.
Stop acting so laid back. Stop giving in. Stop being Miss. Nice already
Give yourself a break.
If you think the relationship is unhealthy. If you think that your guy is not appreciating you.
Fucking leave them. Show them, its not your lost.
Men just wants what they can't have. This is true.
( come on guys, stop denying. betol kan kan kaaaaaaaaan? )
And if you already have doubts on them. And even by confessing, does not work.
Or he does not make any effort to change and try his best to make it happen.
One word, Leave !
I'm not trying to be discouraging bout relationships here.
But i got sick and tired of girls, who complains bout their relationships to me.
Why complain? Why make it a big fuss? If you know you deserve better, then why still hold on?
selenger kan ? -.-
Please, stop blaming yourself too.
It's not you, it's him .
Nobody is perfect, but if you're with someone who is mistreating you.
You are with a person who is so far beneath you that you're pretty near perfect by comparison.
You girls, may ask yourself this at times.
'' i'm so great , so nice.then why doesn't he love me more? why is he acting this way? ''
And Blaaaa Blaaaaaaaaaa Blaaaaaaaaaaa.
But please try to understand that in your case,it's not you, it's him. Believe it or not.
It may have been some of your best qualities that got you into this situation.
Qualities such as, Being loyal, Honest, Trusting and Compassionate.
If your in an unhappy, unsatisfying relationship.
My ultimate advice is. . . ..
NUMBER ONE ! - WALK AWAY !!!
NUMBER TWO ! - BE WILLING TO HURT !!
NUMBER 3 - You must have a very strong foundation in order to do this. Like ME!! HA HA!
Well, as hard and as crazy as this may be to do.
If your just no longer happy, and always stressed up bout your guy.
Sometimes, the only solution is to say good-bye.
Look at it in a positive way, girls. Well, guys also can la. HaHa.
To some of my guy friends, If your girls are acting like one bitch, say good-bye !!
You guys know you can get any better girls you want. So why stick around?
Oh , my sister always mention this to me.
'' Buat pakai orang dulu, sebelum der buat pakai kite. Ha Ha Ha. ''
But, I'm not that sort. I believe in what goes around comes around.
Thats why, i let people hurt me. And i don't complain bout that.
Because i believe in god and i believe in his way of giving his people a lesson.
I let nature take it course. I don't seek revenge or hold grudges.
But that does not mean, whatever you did to me, is forgiven. ((:
So to those people,whom you think you have hurt me before, physically or mentally.
You may think that i have got over and put all of the shits behind me, but the truth is i've not.
HANYA TUHAN SAJA YANG TAHU .. heee
Okay i'm serious, be very very prepared for karma that is awaiting you. ( insert evil smile )
Anyway, like i've mentioned. Look it in a positive way.
There is always a chance that after you've left him.
He may realize that he is a complete idiot for behaving so poorly.
He will quite possibly do everything in his power to get you back.
Then, you can decide if you're willing to take him back .
Hope some how, these helps.
cheer up okay?
there is a soul mate for everyone. ((:

♥ Tuesday, March 24, 2009
11:36 PM

Synergy Night



I had fun fun fun fun ! Especially with the darlings around.
Sorry for being late. It was not my fault okay. I left the house on time, the bus was just too slow.
Apek bus, berak agaknye. Lambat sangat sangat. Maaf sayangs.
And so, met ifah & arinie at Eunos Mrt last cabin, usual place if we're heading town.
The initial plan, was to meet at tampines small mac, 5 pm sharp.
But since, Ifaah baby still at home getting ready, i told her to just meet at Eunos instead.
And as expected, i'm late for 3o minutes. Heeee. ~
But they never complained, instead they laugh. Laugh for the way i walked.
It was very trouble some okay.
The maxi dress was just super long, aku niy da pendek.. ape lagi jalan pon terkedek kedek. Tskk~


Aku sibuk, tak abis abis, eyy amek gamba amek gamba aku !! full full ! haha. (=


Break time . 20 minutes. Took picture. Thanks sean! heeee. (( =

This was at simpang bedok.
We were very hungry, like monsters, we ordered 2 plates of Roti John.
Ifah & Ayu had the Roti John special with mushroom. While i just had the chicken.
I don't like mushroom, disgusting ! eeeeeeeeeew~


Off to simpang bedok.
That's ayu, she the one who spoils me, and treat me very very very the nice. ((:



Head home. Both were late, but step cool relax chill. Answer our mom's call like macam paham.
'' Ohh otw, oh tenga makan, ohh da dalam taxi.'' Banyak lah ohh ohh kaw. Haaa.
Thanks ayu, for the cab fare. Haa. Told ya, your spoiling us.

there are many other pictures, but i'm just plain lazy to upload them here.
goodbye readers, time checked its 2 am. Off to bed.

(:

♥ Monday, March 23, 2009
8:27 PM

Monday blues , back to school !
I hate going to school on Monday. Why? Because there will be 3 periods of math.
Which means 2 hours of seeing Mr .Yeo , a very annoying step handsome teacher.  BORING!!
But with the presence of my oh so lovely friends , nothing is going to be boring. ha ha.
I miss them a lot , especially girlfriends. They have been there for me through thick and thin.
I wonder how i will ever cope in school, without their presence.
this goes for you girls. ( ifah , ayu & arinie )

& Oh! I think I'm really blessed with wonderful people in my life? 
Mr.Shahril was being such a sweetheart, he sponsor me the ticket for tomorrow synergy night.
Sponsor means FREE !! i don't even need to fork out any some of money .
( save duit aku 30 ketik, heehs . )

chemistry class :

He : '' Shila, are you going?  Or your working tomorrow ? '' very concern face.
Me : '' uhh ? go where? synergy ? tak uh, takde cent. '' sad sympathy face.
He: '' Go la . i get the ticket for you. Kay ? '' Sincere face.
Me: '' uh ? really uh? don't want uh. must pay. '' worried face.
He: '' No need pay la , sayang . I sponsor . okay . go kay '' 
Me: ( ape lagi , bedal je leeeer . ) '' Okay ! thanks !! heeeee. '' 

all the way, muka ada senyum sajaaaa. hoho !

Oh. i'm beginning to love my school more and more right now. 
Anyways, these will be this week schedule.


  • Tuesday ,24 / 3 -  Synergy night ,7pm - 10 pm at Esplanade Theater
  • Wednesday , 25/3 - No School. Elearn day. ( meaning, all students will be studying at home through online)
  • Thursday, 26/3 - No School . Going for a job interview at Novena Square. This time its retail baybey!
  • Friday- Sunday , No plans yet. Heehs.

Now, I'm off to meet Ayu baby at tanah merah . She called, and insist of taking the cab.
Babe, you really got to learn to be budget terminal like me. Cannot always take cab.
Your spoiling yourself, and me your close friend !! =X



p.s: i'm good with or without you. 





♥ Sunday, March 22, 2009
12:45 PM

& finally , a day free to update my dead blog. Ha Ha . ^-^
Tell me about it , how long have i not been updating my blog? a month ? weeks? Oh well ~

Life has been quite a roller coaster ride for me. Well, its more to downs than ups. Why?
Simple, cause I'm the type of girl, who believes people very easily. VERY VERY EASILY .
And i easily bought people's excuses. One word , gullible.
Hence, this leads to a situation , that people will always take advantage of me.
Instead of respecting this trust i have towards them, as a bond. As something to treasure for.
They used my faith against me. They lied, they toiled around with my feelings.
And i don't realized this, till someday god just can't see me getting hurt longer, he gave me a hint.
How silly and stupid can i be?Blind over love? Love that means nothing ? Hurr ~
Congrats to you, that i fell into your trap. I was foolish, not to think that your going to lie to me.
It's only natural, i figure that since i wouldn't lie, why would you?
Which is totally wrong ! Your such a liar, penipu haram . Benci Benci Benci !
But sorry baby, I'm not that kind of girl . You want to play games with me?
We can, just name it, but not for long.
Why? Because, I can tolerate your nonsense, but there is a limit.
My level of tolerance, is low. Once caught red handed, good-bye. You got to go.
If your not leaving, well I'll be more than happy to make the first move.
It hurts, it does. It hurts so much, that i fell sick for 1 week?
( muke kaw mesti ada senyum kan , bacer niy? Suke kan aku sakit? -..- )

C'mon, I'm a girl with a very fragile heart. Once broken, it takes a very long time to mend .
But this is not going to be a barrier for me to be strong and move on.
Walking away and staying away, requires the ability to endure pain and loneliness.
I do admit, every single bone in my body urge me to go back to you, and give in.
But i can't, i can't afford to hurt again, i have to resist the temptation.
Well, lucky me, i got my lovely trusted family to lean on, to help me get through this pain.
And i really, thanked god for having them.



p.s: back to square one. Baby, its not my lost. Scrambler or even Mazda?
i don't give a shit. ((: